Unsure of how to fulfill

Hello, 35(F), here. So, I have this fantasy or desire to have a toy inside of me (the ones you can walk around in), and have the guy control it with the remote or app, or whatever it is, while i go about my day. So that they control how/when I orgasm, and I don't know when it's coming, and cant do anything about it. I had this fantasy for a few years now, but have no bf or partner IRL to do it with. I've had enough negative experiences with dating that I just want to have a sexual experience and I don't feel like risking with someone IRL, or waiting/working for it, honestly. So, it's a safety and convenience issue. I feel safer with some stranger doing sexual things to me remotely. I don't even need to know their name. Most important to me is protecting myself and my identity, so no names, numbers, personal socials, etc.

This whole purely sexual, trying to get instant gratification thing is new to me so I don't even know where to begin, other than maybe Craigslist...

Any ideas? Do you all think this fantasy is even possible?

Also, full disclosure, I wouldnt be able to afford the toy right now, so they would have to be willing to get it for me.

Its a fantasy!