Doomscrolling?

Dear community, this is one of those „whats wrong with me“-questions.

I keep reading articles about harmed/abused children or animals knowing that I will emotionally suffer for the rest of the day.

I have always done so but now that I have a baby it bothers me even more.

Just today I read about a ten year old girl that has been abused by her parents brutally and is now dead. I cant stop thinking about that poor soul and how horrible her life must have been. I even cried in the shower and try to pull myself together typing this.

Wtf is wrong with me? Is this some sort of emotional masochism? Whats the underlying issue - postpartum depression?

Thank you for reading!